"In what specific ways do you love the world more than God?"
That's my Bible syudy question before me. 1 John 2:15: "Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him."
A couple days ago when I was meditating on the verse cited in my last post, I was struck by my reluctance and ambivilence (forgive me - I am such a bad speller!). I was praying, "God forbid that I should glory in anything, save the cross...." and in my mind I felt the fleeting away of hopes and dreams. My own hopes. My OWN, VERY OWN and nobody elses dreams and hopes. Not even God's. Just MINE. To make it on my own. To be smart on my own. Have healthy realtionships on my own. To be respected and honored and glorified because I made myself great. Poof. Gone. All my dreams.
But Satan and his evil army are pleased, yes - even dedicated to offer the same deal anytime. Like porn always available on the internet, or a cigarette always available anytime you want to start up again.
Here's my answer to the Bible study question: "I want to be smart enough to be a doctor without God's help. I want to be honored by others as though I were special all on my own. I want to be an extra good person on my own, an extra good Christian instead of the pathetic sinner stained in the mire of gross, smelly, ugly sin."
Thank You for Your grace. Help me to share it. God bless Your readers.
A couple days ago when I was meditating on the verse cited in my last post, I was struck by my reluctance and ambivilence (forgive me - I am such a bad speller!). I was praying, "God forbid that I should glory in anything, save the cross...." and in my mind I felt the fleeting away of hopes and dreams. My own hopes. My OWN, VERY OWN and nobody elses dreams and hopes. Not even God's. Just MINE. To make it on my own. To be smart on my own. Have healthy realtionships on my own. To be respected and honored and glorified because I made myself great. Poof. Gone. All my dreams.
But Satan and his evil army are pleased, yes - even dedicated to offer the same deal anytime. Like porn always available on the internet, or a cigarette always available anytime you want to start up again.
Here's my answer to the Bible study question: "I want to be smart enough to be a doctor without God's help. I want to be honored by others as though I were special all on my own. I want to be an extra good person on my own, an extra good Christian instead of the pathetic sinner stained in the mire of gross, smelly, ugly sin."
Thank You for Your grace. Help me to share it. God bless Your readers.
posted by An Ordinary Christian | 8:09 PM
3 Comments:
Wow...just jumped over from Jennifer's blog. Love your honesty and 'yes!' we all struggle with our pride and wanting to be glorified for our own triumphs. How good is God to shake and break us when we need it? Whenever my head fills with hot air, God finds a lovely big needle to burst it with! But He then shows me that with Christ I can do anything.
Oh, BTW I am the worlds worst speller~ I sure didn't know which word you spoke of that you mis-spelled!
Wait~ Holy Makrel! My sister, Margie lives in Elk Grove, Sacramento! We must talk!!! I'm originally from Los Gatos and San Jose!
You truly are allowing yourself to be transparent. I just ministered to a boy, the one I told you about earlier...his name is Juan.
He was telling me he couldn't speak to the boys at the Ranch because he has not done everything right and he has messed up so many times. I was explaining to him about his pride, but how God wants us to be transparent, that it is in our mistakes that people can see God's hand working.
Then I come here and see your transparency, I must send him to read your site. Thanks for being so honest.
I do hope one day we will meet, I wish you lived next door, I bet we would be great friends.
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